Friday, June 08, 2007

Thank God for Unanswered Prayers

Infertility is a difficult road. Not the toughest of roads for sure but a rocky one none the less. I don't know how many times I begged, prayed, asked why, but I don't anymore. Now I can see the amazing road infertilty has taken us on. Most obvious, we wouldn't be adopting from China and, even with the wait, I am loving the journey. I have learned so much, met amazing people and done some very cool stuff. I am getting more and more involved with Grace & Hope, which is the foster care program that I've spoken of before. We have sponsored a girl for a year, watched her grow in a loving home and I have encouraged at least 4 others to do the same. I love the work we are doing for A Heart for China, the group that brought JinMei to Jacksonville for heart surgery and planning to bring XianBi in November. I've had a blast collecting for Mia's 100 good wish quilt, attending my first Chinese New Year celebration, have made some of the best friends I've ever had and are meeting more all the time. How would I have known that I would be thankful for our infertility. Don't get me wrong, I have bad days and I won't be a 100% good until we have our child but this path is pretty cool. I know I have talked about some of this before but sometimes something happens that makes you reflect and you thank God for unanswered prayers. He IS listening, just sometimes He says "no, I got something else in store for you"!

4 comments:

Unknown said...

Beautiful said. May God continue to bless you as you patiently pursue a family. Your faith is such an example.

adele and dan said...

Hi friend-
Haven't heard from you in a while. I feel this journey in some strange way has more to offer than paperwork and waiting. God places people and events in our world that we just cannot understand. But when we look at the big picture, it all makes sense.

Anonymous said...

Kelly,
It has been heartbreaking to see the pain you have suffered over the years. Yet, through it all, your faith has grown. You are an amazing woman; and I am so very very proud to be your mother.
Mom

Lisa said...

Kelly,

What a well written post. I know exactly how you feel about unanswered prayers! Look at what we have gained by this journey!

Lisa